Observant

When I was registering Caden for Kindergarten, the school councilor told me that Pronghorn had the highest number of married parents in the school district. We were just over 50%. I was shocked. To be the highest, and still only be barely over 50% was crazy to me. The fact that they follow that statistic and had it was crazy. The fact that it probably HUGELY effects (I never know if I am supposed to use affect or effect?) the kids learning is probably why. Now, I am SHOCKED that there are over 50% of parents still married. Almost all of my kids friends have parents that are divorced. The things my kids learn about that! Caden was informing us all about what "seperated" means, and the pros and cons to a first grader when that happens (at first he thought it would be cool, but after about 5 seconds of thinking, he quickly changed his mind and said he wants us to NEVER seperate or divorce!). Kids are so dang observant!

Today while I was eating breakfast, Colbs was playing with a truck right next to me. He was driving it on the table and came to something, so he totally "let the air brakes go" on the truck. I looked at him wondering how in the world he would know to do that. Why would he relate stopping to a huge "push of air" instead of screeching, like a race car would. He totally knows a semi does that. That would have to be from sitting in his seat and observing.

When I think about the things my kids will learn while observing from me, I am sometimes scared. But my good friend Sarah once said, "Who cares how clean my house is, or how fancy I look. My kids have family home evening every week, they read the scriptures every day, they have family prayer twice a day, they go to church every week, and they have testimonies of Christ. That's what matters to me." It was a great comment. She had been talked harshly of for not be clean enough, or on top of it enough. That was her thought. I loved it then, and I love it now. I hope that the things my kids are observing from me are Christlike attributes. Sometimes I feel like I am drowning in life. Like things are just too much! I want to be the perfect mom. Perfectly groomed, behaved, mannered, respectful kids (ok so I am failing miserably in this department... there's always tomorrow!) and a perfectly clean house, a perfectly cooked meal every night, the perfect Relief Society lesson, the perfect party with everyone feeling completely welcome, and of course the perfectly in shape amazingly wonderful supportive wife. Yeah, that's a tough list. Not gonna happen all at once, EVER. I have finally come to grips with it! But, my kids have FHE every week, they go to church every week, they pray "a million times a day" according to Cars (family twice a day, personal at night, meals), they read the scriptures almost daily, and they are building testimonies of Christ. Cael said in his personal prayer 2 nights ago, "Please tell Jesus that we love Him". I thought that was so cute. I have never said anything like that, so he either got it from church, or solely from his soul!

Little does Colbs know, he just taught (or reminded me anyways) a HUGE lesson. Everything we do is being "observed" by someone. Someone is being effected by all of our actions, and I want there to be as many positive, eternal ones as possible for my kids from me!

(I saw a thing on facebook that said something like, "I have 99 problems. 86 of them are completely made up in my head and I am totally stressing myself out about all of them!" That's a pretty good sum up of my head. But I do WHOLE HEARTEDLY believe this! My kids are watching my every move and I will teach them far more by example than by my words alone!) It's a GOOD, GOOD life!!