Dinner

Last night while we were eating dinner, I saw nothing out of the norm. Baylee was eating with us (Cars asked if she could pray, but she said that she was not ready yet. Too cute!) The boys were loud, crazy, all yelling over each other, and munching down. Colby was screaming and pounding on the table, and I was standing in the kitchen crying because I was way too overwhelmed. The boys were oblivious. Chet was out of town. Then I hear Baylee say, "Caden, have you eaten anything today? Why are you eating like you are starving?" I look to Caden, and he is not eating rude or disrespectful. He is chewing with his mouth closed and taking normal, acceptable sized bites. I was a little confused. Come to find out, he was on his third helping so she was just in shock. All the boys will eat like that, but Cars and Carter were too into Baylee to be eating. Caden looked at her a little confused, and said, "Yeah. Why?" She said he was eating more than she does all day. She then told me later (about 30 min, which means she was still thinking about it) that I am going to have a really hard time feeding all my boys. Yep Baylee, I agree!!! Don't know how I'm gonna feed them. Don't know if I am going to make it through this without losing my mind. Chet heard the other day, and it really stuck with both of us, that you never know if what you are doing as parents is working until it's too late. It's a scary thought. The line between stretching yourself to give your kids your all, and stretching yourself too far so that they don't get much of you at all! I'm hoping this line between reality and luney house that I walk every day holds, long enough for Colby to get on a mission!!! I might just downright collapse at that point. Or maybe I just need school to start. Yeah... that would be great!!!